Do you believe in magic?

It's always hard to say yes.

Oh wait,

What if you were to choose how everything will be?

What if you had total control over everything you see?

What if the magic was done by you, not me?



The spectator becomes the magician.

*My handling of Helder Guimaraes's Out Of This Water, a slightly refined version*

I forgot how to breathe

THIS IS IT.

A birthday present given to me by a good friend, MAY CHAI XIN YI and her ER GE.

It was a box. Wrapped beautifully by erge. I wasn't sure what it was. Kinda light. I opened it while I was on the phone with Xin Yi. She had to be there. I removed the wrapping paper to see a parcel with a sticker that said something about first-class-international-delivery-mail-postage-US?! I opened the parcel and underneath the paper cushions, was this.

THE SENTINEL DECK

OH. MY. GOD.

Oh my god oh my god oh my god oh my god!!! I could not believe what I saw!!!! THIS IS...OHHH GOD THIS IS... GOSH... JUST.... AHH!!!

*Goes mad like May totally would if she met Khalil *

I screamed like hell and thanked her for somewhat 27 million times. Throughout the 8 minute phone call I think it was like 4 minutes of OMGOMGOMG!!!!-ing + 2 minutes of THANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOU-ing + 2 minutes gasping for air so that I don't faint. It's almost like a mental breakdown, but in a good way, a GREAT way.

Turns out that Xin Yi had no idea what to get me for my birthday so she bought this deck online with the help of his brother. She found out about this deck when she saw a video of it on facebook, posted by me of course.

I indicated in that post that I'LL HUG ANYONE WHO GETS ME ONE OF THESE. Uhh.. haha. Oh wait, maybe she... nevermind.

Okay, close up shots of this magnificent beauty!!!!

Seriously this deck has the most beautfiful and sophisticated cardbox. The artwork is just breathtaking!

I just found out that my 3.2 megapixel phone can take focus shots. I really like this one.

Mm mmm! Sexy back.



Oh god these just look AMAZING.



The most unique face design that I've ever come across.

Love the jokers! Looks so classic yet so modern!

The back design is just perfect for giant fans.


Truly a surprise. I loved it. Thank you.

Yours sincerely

Ohhh yes, I'm 17.

This blog post may seem short because words can't express how I feel, they can't.

Thank you all who wished me via facebook, sms, msn, calls and at school. I really really appreciate you guys. =)

I'm so very touched by what you all did. For real, I feel really really happy. I know I'm always the funky-happy-mad friend who's always trying to put a smile on your face, but I never knew that I was umm.. how do I put it... I never thought that I was a big deal to you guys. You guys made me feel important today, for that I really couldn't thank you all enough.

Yes I know that wishes are coming my way, but oh god I never ever thought that I would actually receive presents!!! Just a simple Happy Birthday or even a smile could make my day, yet you guys went through all the trouble to make today a day worth remembering for the rest of my life. I feel awfully touched. Seriously, it's surprisingly emotional.

See Kei gave/made me this. I'm so happy when I saw this. She actually wrote my name in her wish. It came with a lovely card as well. I really appreciate this ck, thanks!!!

I definitely love this one. From baobao, jojo, joey, and jiahe. This is so sweet, and I love all of your handwritings. Really, it's beautiful. Oh girls this is just priceless! I'ma go laminate this.

Haha and there's xinyi. And her brother, Jhsien aka erge! Miss mix. Shh, only she and I knows. I love this present. All the way from the US! That is just sooooooooooo mad awesome!!!!! I don't know how many thank you I should say to express my gratitude. Really, this touched me deep. Oh the present itself? No worries, I'll have a post specially dedicated to it.

Hm it's kinda surprising that most of my presents are from form 4. I guess I've bonded with you guys and girls quite well. I'm glad that we're friends. Even though we may no longer go to the same school and see each other often, it doesn't change a thing. Friends. Forever.

LAST BUT NOT LEAST.

THE MOST PRECIOUS DECK ON EARTH.

The one and only birthday-wish-deck, exclusively from my schoolmates. 52 cards. Every card is a birthday card that represents a card in a poker deck. Ace through king, all for suits. Oh me gosh, I really don't know what to say. First, the person who thought of this idea is genius! I'd never thought of anything like this. This shows that you guys put in a lot of effort to think of this magnificent idea. Thank you thank you thank you x 1/0. And mad thanks to haukit, who drew all 52 cards by hand. And a million thanks to everyone who wrote in it.

This is the most priceless-meaningful-precious-overwhelming-great deck ever existed on the face of the planet. I will treasure this till the day I die.

A♦ Jia Min
2♦ Nermit
3♦ Oi Yee
4♦ Chentel (Earliest birthday wish from this fine lady, 2 days before! Haha)
5♦ Jeslene
6♦ Esther! (Favourite card of mine!)
7♦ Amir
8♦ Sorry I really can't read your signature!
9♦ Beh
10♦ Wei Bin
J♦ CJ
Q♦ Wei Xian
K♦ Jou Heng

Diamonds are my favourite suit as well!

A♣ Ming Hun
2♣ Tian Peng
3♣ Jia En
4♣ Hui Loon
5♣ Soon Ming
6♣ Afiq
7♣ See Kei
8♣ Zhu Wen
9♣ No name!
10♣ Harkiran
J♣ Wei Ming
Q♣ Yi Yong
K♣ Amin

A♥ Xin Hui
2♥ Cui Ling
3♥ Joey
4♥ Su Ping
5♥ Wendy
6♥ Ushalini
7♥ Suresh
8♥ Anis
9♥ Also no name! ( I think it's Su Hwa)
10♥ Hui Gi
J♥ Nishanti
Q♥ Wei Qing
K♥ Shahira

A♠ Xin Yi
2♠ Kok Hui
3♠ Kai Sian
4♠ Dyi Perng
5♠ Yong How
6♠ Amira
7♠ Ler Ling
8♠ Yi Thin
9♠ Qayum
10♠ Bao Ying
J♠ Xin Ying
Q♠ Vanessa
K♠ Cheng Yin

______i___love___you___all______

I really cannot imagine life without all of you.

*Believe what you want, I think I might have teared a little.*

I wanna drive car car

Just woke up from a 3 hour nap, a bit blur now. So if anything you read does not make sense, you know why.

So today is the last day that I'll be blogging as a 16-year teen. When the clock strikes 12am, I'll have to kiss 16 goodbye as I've lived a full 16 years in this world and say hello to the new 17 me. Well technically I'm 17 only around 10am tomorrow, uhmm... whatever.

16 was a great year for me, in a sense that everyone around me is safe and healthy. I guess that's the most important. Just live healthy and life's good. I've made new friends and I'm very glad I did. I've made changes in my lifestyle that shapes who I am today. I know I'm not perfect, I'll keep on improving myself as a person to bring out the best in me.

I started to think really deep into my future. I know what is my passion. And I know that it's going to get really, really tough if I were to pursue it. Of course I'll continue to strive for my studies but I know very well what I'm eyeing for in the long run. I believe that sometimes one has to be crazy enough to go all out and believe that what he does will actually work. But again, this is just me. I don't think anyone agrees with me. Like I've said, when no one believes in you, you'll just have to believe in yourself.

Okay anyways, I hope that it'll be a good 17 for me. Hopefully within a few months you'll see me vroom vroom here and there in a car car. Haha.

*I love my life. But I'm not living it well enough.*

我不懂事

I brought my videocam to school yesterday to record the process of the chinese debate competition. I went to bio lab and left it in class. It got stolen.

I was a retard to leave it there I know. People make mistakes but I repeated the same mistake 2 years ago. That I cannot really forgive myself. I'll be more careful next time.

I went to the teachers and there was a search team. Many prefects were involved and I was grateful for everyone's help. Though at the time we found was nothing, all hopes seemed to be lost.

I suspected Amir, my classmate. Of course I had my reasons. Many people saw that there were people interacting with him outside my class and that they were acting strange. Though I swear to god I had never accused him of doing it. I didn't tell anyone in anyway that he was the one who stole my videocam. He realised that he was suspected and got pissed off when dp agitated him a bit. I called him yesterday to clear things up.

Seriously man, if you thought that I accused you of the crime then it was an misunderstanding, because I didn't. And if you're angry at me suspecting you, well please understand that I have my reasons. I hope this doesn't ruin things between us. I'm sorry.

I have a confession to make. At the time I felt that a malay did it. I don't want this to become a race issue but it was indeed what I felt inside. I don't know why. But what I felt had nothing to do with what I did. Every action was based on facts and proof. I didn't specially check on the malays or anything. I'm sorry to all the malays out there, my mindset was a bit racist. I'll change I swear.

Back to the story. At about half past noon I saw two Malays guy sneaking behind the Bengkel Landskap. They were doing something, I could not see clearly. There wasn't any prefects nearby then and they were leaving. I had to take things into my own hands at that moment. I halted them to check their bags. One of them was willing to let me inspect his sling bag white the the other avoided me and climbed out the school gate.

I followed him and asked Amir Yacob and a friend of his for their help. They were outside the school so I asked them to stop him and try to bring him back to school. After some time, they came back empty handed, claiming that he had walked quickly and got a motorbike and took off.

They could recognize their faces so we went to check for their names and class. All three of them, runaway guy, let-me-check-bag-guy, and motorbike guy are from 4v1. Shamsul, Shah and Fakhrul. So I contacted my father. Of course he was angry. He came to school got things done. Pengetua called Fakhrul to get to Shamsul. A threat was imposed that if they didn't return their steal the police will look into it.

Then I received a message from my father that they returned it. It was great news. I was damn relieved. Needless to say, I still felt guilty for my carelessness. I could not believe how unlucky I was. I mean I could have very well left it on the road and it may still be there a few days later but in school, it was out of sight for only an hour and it's already gone.

Anyways, I got it back from the school earlier today. This is the worst part. The memory has been deleted. Everything is gone. Footages of my family's trips to China, Taiwan, my magic, outings, everything, lost. I felt bad, but not bad enough.

I went home and my dad blew up. He said that those footages were precious memories that could not be brought back. So what now? Are they going to be sponsor my family another trip to Taiwan to collect back our lost clips? He planned to meet the guy's parents. Also he said that I wasn't feeling too bad about it, which reflects that I don't cherish the moments we've had and don't take them seriously.

He's right. I've let you down. I'm so immature. I'm already 17 yet I didn't thought of it that way. At the time I thought that it was a bummer but nothing could be done so let's just get over it. Apparently I was wrong. I felt like a piece of shit. It felt dark and empty. Right now, I feel worthless. What the hell are books for? What the hell is school for? I'm ignorant to many things. Why can't I brighten up? Why is it that my mind is stuck? Why don't I f**king grow up?

I hate myself for this. Hate is a word that I almost never use.

This is going to stay with me for the rest of my life.

*I freaking hate posts like this. But I need to remind myself of all the wrongs I did. I have to.*

我还长鹅叻

Whadup whadup whadup y'all!

Yesternight was mad awesome. My friends and I meet at the basketball court behind the temple at kosa. 没错，就是中秋节！

The crowd was big. There were performances of elderly people dancing which... umm.. isn't that entertaining but hey I think I wouldn't be able to move like that when I'm 70. So props to all dancers! Some of the form 4 guys were there as well. 咱们 就聊天啊，聊人聊事，十分轻松。

We actually sucked at lighting up a lantern. Anyways I did manage to get it done, so we walked around a bit then I gave my lantern away to a kid. 然后，我们放孔明灯，两次。超好玩的！在灯上写愿望，烧燃料，等它升空。是咯，这样也爽。经过我们精心改良后的孔明灯果然创意十足，有尾巴的，而且有四条哦！！不仅如此，我们还把电话号码写在灯上，叫嫦娥call我们，希望她会收到。=)

Then we went on the swing. Very high, literally. It's been a long long time since I went up the swing like at least 2 meters. It got to a point where it was mad-exhiliarating-high-flying-scary. 很疯很疯。豪杰差点自杀，秋千荡到一半跳下来。撞到背部啦，活该。赐爝超enjoy，再高一点，再高一点！然后玩显了大家就回家。

Though just when we're about to leave. We suey suey stepped on a spot where there were mercun. Piak piak piak, I think it stung my leg a bit. 正在扫地的Auntie骂我们说“看到我拿着什么吗？（扫把）要不要来一起扫？？！”Dear Auntie, 冤枉啊，炮并不是我们放的。我们更不会傻到放炮炸自己的脚，对吗?

So that was the only bummer of the night. 除了这件小事，一切只能用一个字形容，爽！ 真的好久没有这样玩了，回味... ... ...

Next time. It'll be funner, badder, crazierer. 这次不会是最后一次，毕业后我们再来！




* I love egg yolk. Mooncake, Dumpling etc. *

Waterlove

The waters used to be still

like the surface of a pond

Undisturbed

I could use it as a mirror

I could see my own reflection

Clarity

Then the rain came pouring down

more like a thunderstorm

Chaos

I enjoy the beautiful rain

yet the waters are quiet no more

Disrupted

The waters will never be calm

unless the clouds go away

Repeat

Written on a rainy day

First time in a long time

Yeah. Percubaan results are out. I'm satisfied with my grades.

5A+ 4A 1A- (BC grrr...) 4th position in class.

I don't wanna get overconfident though. So it's the usual - good, not great, could do better.

And something odd happened during moral class. Well my friends and I attended a moral talk a while ago. We found some major contradictions in the answering techniques that were taught by our schools' teachers and the teacher who gave the talk.

That is for essay, do we just start with Nilai xxx. Or do we have to write a full sentence, xxx perlu mengamalkan nilai xxx. So I asked Pn Lim well which do we follow.

It's a very simple question.

Then. A teacher came in. She asked us if we wanted to follow the words of some teacher whom we don't know well or that of the teachers who taught us these two years. She said she feels sad bla bla bla bla.

Huh? This is now a trust issue? Come on teacher, we're students, it's only right that we ask when we're confused. And I'm not the only one, the whole class is. So if you wanna talk about trust, honestly I trust facts, data. Our school produces more or less 5 A+ for moral per year I guess? And that teacher whom we met for the first time claimed that all her students (probably first class only) got A+ except two. (They got A)

Hm... what do you think? What does your common sense or any other senses tell you? Just putting it out there.

And based on language what the other teacher said was perfectly logical. I believe there's nothing wrong with writing a full sentence. And it could possibly be considered wrong to write an incomplete sentence. So what's the big fuss about following her methods anyway?

All I can say is, none of us were trying to challenge you la teacher. We have better things to do, such as making sure the right way to follow so that we could score well in spm so that you wouldn't have to face the pengetua with a sour face.

Get real. Be more professional.

Good afternight

Tuition today at Omega was somehow extra boring and drowsy. I was literally at one point unconscious. Half dreaming, the other half daydreaming.

I'm really tired. Having to wake up every Sunday morning at about 6.45am. Bathe, prepare, have my first breakfast. The bus fetches me at 7.25am. Reach Omega at 8am. Tuition starts at 8.30am and ends at 10.30am. Reach home at 11am. Have my second breakfast. Dilly dally. Nap till maybe 1pm. So that's pretty much 6 hours gone, just for that 2 hour tuition.

Hm I believe it's worth it, or else I wouldn't have done it. My teacher, Cikgu Radzi, he's a real pro. He definitely knows what he's doing. He's knowledgeable, non-racist, humourous, speaks with a clear voice and tries his best to keep the class interested. One of the best teachers I reckon.

Yeap I sure wish that all the depressing Sunday mornings aren't for nothing.

Good afternight. ( used for afternoon naps)


* I'm thinking of adding 'helluva' and 'mad 'to my everyday vocabulary *

We need to talk

So today's the day of the Taylor's College's Principal Awards interview.

I had a rough morning. After I got my haircut, I prepped myself for the interview. I realised that I got the wrong shirt. It was suppose to be long sleeved. I was pretty mad, still nothing could be done so I had to make do with it. Ah It's totally not my look. Slack pants are pretty cool though. And those shoes, you know the polished shoes where adults wear to work? I had to wear a pair of those. They felt like high heels literally. Yeap, guy's high heels.

I got to Thistle Hotel and met up with Vanessa, who's in this over-mature-looking dress, or whatever you call it. Then Jia En and Cheng Yin arrived. Jia En looked suave in his dark attire, like a lawyer ready to sue the crap of out someone. And Cheng Yin looked like his assistant. Then Yong How arrived. He too was wearing dark blue and black. So everyone looked natural except for me.

We attended the briefing session. Half of the people there was from SSI. So yea we're ready to own some SSI-ers. Nah just joking. Bla bla bla, this and that. And it was time.

Je, yh, cy and I was the first batch for the afternoon session. V was only after us so she had to wait. My interviewer was Ms Oi Lay Tin, I don't know how its spelled. She was rather friendly. Asked sharp questions, like if we were to introduce Ninjutsu into Taylor's how would you implement it? Give me a gist of your essay within a few sentences. What is your two main priority as a president of a club? (I thought there could only be ONE priority.) Um it ended after 20 minutes or so. I wasn't nervous at all. I didn't stutter. So I think I did okay.

I fetched yh back home. I had lunch and slept for slightly less than 4 hours.

I hadn't completed my homework. Oh baby cousins coming! *Scratched thoughts of actually touching my homework *

Thank You It's Friday

Yesterday was quite a day. I loved it.

I woke up about 8am. Did something to kill time. Hope you liked it.

I went for lunch with yxhmcxy. Triple cheese burger was mad awesome. Seriously I don't think it's possible to get enough of cheeeeeeeeeeese. Pictures are not always the best thing. It's always nice to see it but it's kinda sad when all you can do is only see. I'm not trying to make sense here. So uh... anyways, I thank you all for that wonderful time.

In the evening I went photo-video-shooting with yhkswagbyyxh. It was hella fun. I realised that photoshooting can be very fulfilling. We went walking around belibis area. We even went to the water tank, just to see what we'll get. I suppose for me, I don't really have any strong inspirations to take beautiful shots. Though I really enjoyed the experience. SHADOWS are the new in-thing. Haha. Let's do it again some other time okay? A million thanks to you guys for making my day.

My videocam hadn't enough battery life. Ah long story, don't wish to talk about it. So it was a bummer that I could not record the whole session. Oh yea we went to Pn Soh's house, snapped pictures of her dog. We had a chat about future plans, hmm mainly about how choosing our path can help in achieving self satisfaction in the long run. Thanks Pn Soh!

Then uh Soon Ming and I went to Church of Praise for the 中秋节event. Esther and Timothy is part of the JC Radix so they were there too. We played games, had food, had fun. Um honestly everything there had nothing to do with 中秋节 other than the decorations. Haha. Still I had a great time there meeting new people. My group leader was Jasmin, who's studying in Singapore, sec 3. Yeap better write it down so I don't forget. Thank you Soon Ming's parents and uncle (never knew his name ) for the transport!

Actually I once went to a barbecue at Nusavilla organised by them last year. That time I went with Helen and Jiawenn. I was quite surprised that some of them still remembered me. Of course I remember them too. Thanks people for throwing such an awesome party!

Yeap and I went to sleep after I finished watching 'The Illusionist'. Fascinating movie. Seriously to all magic lovers out there, check it out.

So I had a great day. Tired but great. Tired and great.

The maestro. The legend. The king.

It's Malaysia Day, yes a holiday.

So I was just sitting in my room surfing the theory11 site, then I saw this video of David Copperfield performing on the finale of America's Got Talent yesterday. He performed the Shadow Box and Squeeze Box. His magic was full of charm.

He is the most famous and successful magician in the world. He's for real. His magic is a mystery. He lead people into believing that spirits, ghosts helped him to achieve his illusions. Till this day, few can explain how walked through the Great Wall of China, how he made the Statue of Liberty disappear. I know I can't.

As a card magic pratitioner, I look up to him a lot. Although he was not my major inspiration in magic, he showed all of us what a single man can achieve with passion, hardwork, and determination. A phenomenon.

I wiki-ed his name and guess what? Today's his birthday! 16 Septermber. What are the odds? Yes it's 1 in 365. So if you think of it, Malaysia's having a holiday on David Copperfield's birthday!

Have fun people.

May~be~May

So yesterday. I got very bored and decided to film a magic video. It's an effect by Alex Elmsley. He invented my most trusty sleight, the elmsley count. It's nothing too hard, but it has served me tremendously well throughtout the years. I don't really remember the name of the effect though.

The performance was done at a normal speed (already quite slow) and slowed down even more by editing. To me speed isn't really a factor that defines your magic. I don't really mind fast or slow, but I try to get as smooth as possible.

You know me, when it comes to videos, it's a lot of about the music. The music used in the video is Cooler Than Me, it's alternate version that is. Recommended by Cuiling, thanks! It gives the exact feel that I want the performance to have, smooth, style, cool, and class.

The title has an interesting story behind it. It was inspired by mcxy, we had a chat and I asked her to think of a title. She kinda gave me 'Tomato, Toilet, Toothbrush, OMG, WOW' and other 'great' ideas. Then she said she MISSES her towel. MISS. Has different meanings, and the star of the trick is a queen. I figured it was the perfect title for the video.

I'm satisfied with the end result.

MISS =) Enjoy.

A nonchalant post

So, the day was good.

I mean yesterday, it's 12.27am.

Nothing went too wrong and I'm grateful for that.

I woke up at 8am to write a letter.

Yes, me, writing, pen, paper, long long essay-karangan-作文.

Had lunch with three fine ladies, ctzwjcllyxh.

There was the blue, the grey, and the nothing = pink.

Though I wasn't quite sure that I behaved normally.

Thanks Chentel's and Jeslene's mom for the ride.

I finished watching Vampire's Diaries.

Not bad at all, still I'm unhappy that Lexi died.

Tried to touch my homework but wasn't successful.

Come to think of it, I kinda wasted my day.

Though I enjoyed it.

Time I enjoy wasting was not wasted.

As nothing as me

I have nothing on my mind right now.

It's a great feeling.

I think it's the morning.

The next time I get this feeling is probably in the exam hall.

That I hope won't happen.

Ah enjoy it while I can.

I know it won't last.


PS : Paper work due today.

Eye fill we eared

So I've been watching this series, Vampire's Diary. Cause I'm bored and I need something to take my mind off the other something.

Let's not get into that other something.

So I've heard of this show from a friend of mine and decided to give it a shot. I'm at episode 10 right now, actually half way through. It's not bad. At first it was kinda boring, then it got better.

Ah the classics, vampire loves human girl. Girl find out, freaks out, loves him anyway. Oh yea there are witches too. Hm I wonder can a witch be turned into a vampire? Wow, then she'll be like a vitch, or a wampire. There are no werewolves though, hmm I wonder is there a female werewolf. That'll be awkward. The producers probably couldn't figure out anything suitable for her to wear at the same time keep it under 18.

The only thing I don't really like is that the characters die too quickly. Oh a new vampire, finally...then within 1 episode, she's dead. And Lexi! Played by Arielle... something, I saw her in a movie once, I totally adore her! But again, dead. Couldn't survive 1 episode. It's as if Arielle got really sick and the producers had to cut her off the show.

I like it more than Twilight. At least the female lead actor does not mess with her hair every 10 seconds.

PPS's great, though I still like YouTube better.

Back to watching.

Pokerjack

Oh great

NOW?

I can't deal with this any longer

Every second ends with a sigh

I want to but I can't

For all the right reasons

I had the 10 of ♥ and the 9 of ♠

Already I'm having a hard time

Shoud I call, raise, check or go all in?

Or should I just fold?

No, I have folded too many times
And it's gotten me no where

I've been counting cards

I know the deck is cold

My chances are slim

Actually zero if you were to round up

Though I had to play the hand
One way or another

I'm still here counting my chips
The dealer seems patient enough

It all comes down the one thing
The cruel but inevitable truth

Before one wins
He must learn how to lose

(You have no idea how many times I've written, highlighted, deleted, and rewritten this post.)

Have a go jedi

We filmed this during our Singapore trip two days ago. Haha yea I know it's incredibly stupid and lame. Still, I enjoy doing all those stupid-funny-throw-face things with my friends. This is the last year we get to have this kind of fun. After secondary school, it's going to be crazier!!! Though we probably have already parted by then, so I'll cherish the time we have left.

This video took me about 4 hours. Actually the editing took probably less than 2 hours, just that I had a hard time to come up with an idea. The intro music was Star Wars theme and the outro song was Have A Go Hero by Steve Appleton.

This song was sent me by And-a-bell. Credits to her! When I first heard this song, I knew I had to make a video with it. I long ago had the idea of introducing people using the four beats in the opening of the song. I finally got to do it. Watch the video and you'll know what I mean.

Oh I'll never forget it. This is too precious. There's nothing in the video but FUN. =)

All in, all out

Things seem kinda slow today. I don't wanna regret wasting my time.

Okay. My to-do-list for this holidays:

1. Master Preqel.
2. Make another video.
3. Design the class shirt.
4. Write a letter.
5. Finish homework.
6. Study, if possible.
7. Go for interview.
8. Follow this list.

I have some serious thinking to do. About everything. Past, present, future.

I know what I want. Just that I don't want it bad enough.

Born from a boombox

STEP UP 3D was awesome!!! I've been look forward to this movie since I saw the trailer early this year. And it did not disappoint me, hella fantastic movie!!!

I watched with Jiamin, Haukit and Jiaen at Vivocity, Singapore. Ah it's been a while.

I love the first battle at the park, Moose totally smoked Kid Darkness (Bboy Cloud)! And that robot guy (Madd Chadd) was mad dope during the first battle in the World Jam. Sick isolations! Camille and Moose's dance set reminded me of Marry Poppins, haha. Last but certainly not least, final battle, Pirates vs Samurai!!! Sick costume, and Bboy Jalen from Supercrew was in it too! Yea the kid who did headspins. The Pirates colab with the MSA crew from Step Up 2, what a clever idea! Of course the ending was a nice kicker. Freestyle tutting, owned it! Yea the finger patterns and styling, that's called tutting.

Moose's freestyle are so amazing! I would love to see him battle Joe Larot from Jabbawockeez someday. Madd Chadd vs Chibi too! The soundtrack was real good as well, I kinda downloaded all of them before I even watched the movie. Best track had to be Beggin' by Madcon, played during the Battle of Gwai. Yes I sometimes listen to rap music. Diversity.

Truly satisfied. Though the 3D effect gave me a mild headache afterwards.

We had lunch at a mini food court. And did a stupid and funny video session. I'll be editing it later, look out for it!

Jiamin hurt her foot, bled a little. Her shoes were too tight fitting so she had to get a new pair of flip flops there and then. We bought a present for Puan Soh at the National Geographic shop. Hope she doesn't see this spoiler. I bought a few decks, two of which turned out to be fakes, no wonder they were so cheap. Ah I'm just glad that they can faro, good enough for practising I guess.



We went to Chinatown. No specific reasons. Latterns here and there, it would look dazzling at night. Nothing much to do there, walked around for a while and decided to go home.

I was so glad that we had places to sit down on our way back to Jurong. Turned out we were on the wrong train, damn. Got on the right train, but stood all the way to Jurong. We changed 3 buses from Singapore to Jb, amazing right. People can be very uncivilised. We were queueing and when the bus arrived, everyone rushed up from all directions like mad dogs, ignoring the queue.

Anyways, got home safely. One of the best outings I reckon, free and easy.

Promise me we'll do this again someday.

See hedge, Ian? Tea yell

It's 1.01 in the morning, I should be ______ instead of ______.

A. sleeping blogging

B. acting thinking

C. forgetting missing

D. searching ignoring

Bonus question. All answers accepted.

I don't know how I get these out-of-nowhere-ideas.

A short post, how cool is that.

It's 1.17am.

Wish that I won't wake up late for the awesome day that is tomorrow.

Unforgotten

Yesterday was quite a day. I met up with my primary school friends and teachers!

Oh wait before that, I had to wake up early to attend the moral seminar. The talk was by a highly experienced chinese teacher, talking about our common mistakes. She even introduced the weirdest (forgive me for saying this) memorising method. She actually used body parts to remember the nilai and kata kunci. I don't know how she does it. And she memorise the nilai by their initials. So menghormati hak golongan kurang berupaya would be MHGKB, yeap all 36 of them.

What she taught us was different from Pn Lim's teachings. She even mildy insulted Pn Lim. We said "可是我们的老师不是这样说的" and she replied "所以有时候学生不懂为什么自己拿不到A" Only one can be right, we need explainations. Well I guess Zhu Wen would be ahead of us, she was there too.

Okay, back to reunion lunch event. So we met up at McDonalds.

All together there was about 20+ of us. Half of which is from our school. Haha.

雯馨，芷薇，丽婷，明惠，诗慧，婉甄，文琳，翠凌，钦莹，丽芳，乐凌，微清，爱怡，绍琪，彗祺，文安，佳恩，镇玮，伟明，豪杰，维斌，国维，宏亮，我。

I wonder if I missed anyone. If so, sorry! Ah you probably wouldn't see this anyway.

郑素桂老师, Mrs Yong, and Cikgu Jenny was there. They totally looked younger and prettier! What a pity 方老师 had something on and could not attend. They said they couldn't contact 麦老师 as well.

Yea so it was crowded at McD as usual. Everyone somehow got to sit down anyways. We chatted and had fun, we looked at our 6(1) class photo, enjoyed reminiscing about the old times. I guess it's fair to say that Ler Ling changed the most. She changed from this dirty-untidy-messy-crazy-looking-weirdo to the talkative-laugh-out-loud-a-bit-rosak-on-the-inside-weirdo.

I'm so happy that all three teachers remembered me, it was probably because of my yellow tie back then.

It was nice that the teachers sponsored the lunch, their reason being that we can't even make money. I had GCB by the way, so-so la. The lunch ended soon and we took pictures. Everyone was looking at us and we didn't care. So we lingered outside McD for about 15 minutes and it was goodbye so long farewell hope to see you again.

Then the girls started the Neway clan, while I started the Movie clan. About 10 of us joined the Movie clan. And then we split into the Step Up tribe and Descent tribe. Haha yea, so in the end 5 of us The Descent 2 and the other 5 watched Step Up 3.

The girls kept on covering their eyes. And I kept pulling their hands away and went 不要遮啦，看！看！The storyline sucked but I enjoyed the thrill.

Then I did street magic! My first ever. Haha. Hell it was nervous. I did three effects on three audiences and it was rather successful I would say. Still I could've done much much much better. I guess I'll just have to prove myself, look out for me people!

Gosh this getting way too long.

My phone got weird so I didn't take much pictures.

Let me guess, all of you read the first sentence, got bored and scrolled down here.

I killed your dinosaurs and blew myself up

THE PLEDGE

It started with a fresh deck of cards.

Sealed and yet to be opened.

THE TURN

I had seen nothing like it and was fully mesmerized.

It was magic.

THE PRESTIGE

It ended the way it started.

And it left me wondering.

Ladies and gentlemen.

For my last trick.

I'll disappear for good.

Jedi mind trick?

I heard something.

Probably the hidden truth. I felt so stupid. How could I not think of that? So obvious, right in front of my eyes, yet I could not see it. I think I was blind, we all are at some point.

I'm not sure if it is what it is said to be, and I'm not sure how I felt. Though it was uneasy. VERY UNEASY. Felt like injections, a million injections at the same time, at the same spot. Oh well, life can be a pocket full of sunshine. Or simply a bucket full of shit.

I had not stepped on this path before, so there will be a lot for me to learn and discover. No worries, I learn fast.

Oh well, the smile on my face doesn't wanna go away. =)



I heard something.

Not surprising actually. I see signs of it already. Turned out I was spot on. I thought I saw a bit of me in you, dilemma.

Oh veteran, do what you have decided. You have already made your choice, you just don't know it yet. You know how it is, how it should be and how it will be. It's up to you, it always have been.

Nothing's too big of a deal, let us be water and flow with it. =)





If only things were easy.

*looks into the distance*

Spent a long time trying to think of a long title but lacked ideas so I came up with this

It's been a long long time since I've played basketball with my friends. I would say half a year or so. For real, everyone had lost their touch. I didn't had any so I was just about the same. Haha.

Believe it or not, I practised on my piano just now. YAY! Finally something's going on. I've not practiced on my piano longer than I had not play any basketball. Yea that's how long I've been slacking.

Now I suck bad, seriously. I could do a few miserable songs, but it wasn't there. My musicals notes were empty, I had no control. For real I don't consider myself any grade at all. I could play the notes, but not the song, if this makes any sense at all.

For the fun of it masih boleh, but to impress myself I've failed. I wonder if I should get back at it seriously, or just you know, meddle with some pleasant pieces, preferably easy ones.

Thinking back, I've come a long way to achieve what I achieved. I shouldn't just let it go like this. Though if I continue working on it just because I don't want to let it go to waste, isn't it pointless? I'm always the just-because-you-can-doesn't-mean-you-should kinda guy. I believe I can do anything. Everyone can do anything, literally. So the question is not can/cannot, it's want/don't want. And I want what makes the people around me and I happy.

I don't like this post. It's just one of those days.