I will not blog for the next few weeks. Yeap exams. I know I know.. it's killing me as well.
So before I go, uh... Darn I can't think of anything meaningful to say that will leave my dear readers pondering.
Oh yea, a very interesting and challenging question suggested by the guy who gave a talk during budaya.
感觉是什么？
See you my beloved.
Saturday, April 24, 2010
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
Illusion. Magic. Sleight of hand.
I will keep this post as short as possible.
I had a blast on Tuesday, the day I could bring my cards to school and show no fear towards teachers or anyone else. It was the Science and Math fair. I took part in the math booth. It was of course, a hell lot of fun. There was sudoku (kinda boring), puzzles, lil red cars, all sorts of rubik's cubes and of course my cards.
I was to show card magic effects based on mathematical principles. But how could one resist to showcase this wonderful art form when he could? Well yea I ended up doing 10% math card trick and 90% real card magic. It was really worth the while. I amazed and amused 10 teachers or so, and about half of the students who were there.
Sure had fun. What a great practice session. Really gave me a boost in my confidence. No more shaking and trembling hands. The best thing is, Puan Lim asked for me to performed during teachers' day. Of course I agreed, I would love to impress the teachers for it is my last year in this school of beautiful memories. Though I will have to discuss with the ICT people for them to set up a cam projector so that my acts are to be seen on the wide screen in the dewan. Hope all goes well. I will not blow this up. =)
I had a blast on Tuesday, the day I could bring my cards to school and show no fear towards teachers or anyone else. It was the Science and Math fair. I took part in the math booth. It was of course, a hell lot of fun. There was sudoku (kinda boring), puzzles, lil red cars, all sorts of rubik's cubes and of course my cards.
I was to show card magic effects based on mathematical principles. But how could one resist to showcase this wonderful art form when he could? Well yea I ended up doing 10% math card trick and 90% real card magic. It was really worth the while. I amazed and amused 10 teachers or so, and about half of the students who were there.
Sure had fun. What a great practice session. Really gave me a boost in my confidence. No more shaking and trembling hands. The best thing is, Puan Lim asked for me to performed during teachers' day. Of course I agreed, I would love to impress the teachers for it is my last year in this school of beautiful memories. Though I will have to discuss with the ICT people for them to set up a cam projector so that my acts are to be seen on the wide screen in the dewan. Hope all goes well. I will not blow this up. =)
Saturday, April 17, 2010
I think it's ionic
Somehow my heart is beating quite fast as I'm writing this post. Odd. Hm.
I really feel that my life is like a tv series. Like a drama. All my actions lately can be found in movie scripts. I was super shocked when I realised it myself. Cause normally I would watch the show and go " Yea like that's ever gonna happen in real life.' And then it did. Irony.
Of course that's a good thing, cause then I would know what is going to happen next. The usual plot I guess. Can be mentally prepared then.
I've got homework to do. Books to read. No time to waste.
I'm not making any sense am I. Nope *says inner voice*. Oh shut up.
I really feel that my life is like a tv series. Like a drama. All my actions lately can be found in movie scripts. I was super shocked when I realised it myself. Cause normally I would watch the show and go " Yea like that's ever gonna happen in real life.' And then it did. Irony.
Of course that's a good thing, cause then I would know what is going to happen next. The usual plot I guess. Can be mentally prepared then.
I've got homework to do. Books to read. No time to waste.
I'm not making any sense am I. Nope *says inner voice*. Oh shut up.
Thursday, April 15, 2010
**** *** ****
The following rant may be offensive, sensitive, and I don't care.
Today was a beautiful day until I was asked to see Puan Norianni, however you spell it. She seemed nice until she told me that there is a problem with the WAT'S UR NEXT MOVE shirt design. She, our senior assistant of co-curricular activity, told me the most absurd thing I heard in my 17 years of life.
She claimed that after discussing with the agama teacher, our design may cause some problems because of the cross which is found on the king's head. It could be misunderstood as a symbol that somehow relates to christianity?! WHAT THE. That's my first reaction. I was shocked. My jaw dropped from my mouth to the ground first floor.( I was at the second floor at the time.)
Who in the right mind would say such things? I really really don't get it. First, that cross on the king's head. It's a plus sign of equal length for each side. So it ain't a christian cross. Next, I can assure everyone in the world that every king on the chess board has a cross on top of it. You know why? BECAUSE THAT'S HOW IT WAS DESIGN ******.
I don't think that anyone would think of would be affected into thinking that the design would have anything to do with christianity. You know why? BECAUSE IT DOESN'T. Teacher says that we are not the problem. She said that students would wear those shirt at home and when they're parents see it, they might be unhappy about it. And when their young siblings see it, they might in some weird way get affected by christianity. Dear blog readers, if you can understand this blog, you have common sense then. You tell me.
Then the weirder things came up. Well I was like okay so if you insist, this shirt will not be sold to the malays then. AND NOW. She said, 1Malaysia, we must take into account of everyone's thought. So if don't sell, all don't sell. I was bombed. BOMBED. In chinese it's called ZHA DAO. It's when you have a lightning strike behind you and you're the only one who can feel it.
1Malaysia is about unity. It's about doing things that everyone does and accepting it without prejudice whatsover. It's not about restricting ourselves. Doing only things that satisfy everyone. That's not how the world works. Get over it.
I was discussing with the teacher for quite some time and she's still reluctant to change her mind. I know what she means, I understand her point. But I just feel that it is not a good-enough reason to make me change anything at all. Redesigning it, redrawing it, that's not a problem. It's just time and work. But I feel that what she said can't be considered as a reason for me to make any changes.
Is vexed. Is still flabbergasted to see how such knowledgeable people can say such words. If you are really relligious, then you will not feel anything. Being relligious doesn't mean to be protective or defensive for your relligion. It means to understand what is right and following it.
Conclusion : I don't wanna be racist. But this. will not happen in Singapore.
The end.
Today was a beautiful day until I was asked to see Puan Norianni, however you spell it. She seemed nice until she told me that there is a problem with the WAT'S UR NEXT MOVE shirt design. She, our senior assistant of co-curricular activity, told me the most absurd thing I heard in my 17 years of life.
She claimed that after discussing with the agama teacher, our design may cause some problems because of the cross which is found on the king's head. It could be misunderstood as a symbol that somehow relates to christianity?! WHAT THE. That's my first reaction. I was shocked. My jaw dropped from my mouth to the ground first floor.( I was at the second floor at the time.)
Who in the right mind would say such things? I really really don't get it. First, that cross on the king's head. It's a plus sign of equal length for each side. So it ain't a christian cross. Next, I can assure everyone in the world that every king on the chess board has a cross on top of it. You know why? BECAUSE THAT'S HOW IT WAS DESIGN ******.
I don't think that anyone would think of would be affected into thinking that the design would have anything to do with christianity. You know why? BECAUSE IT DOESN'T. Teacher says that we are not the problem. She said that students would wear those shirt at home and when they're parents see it, they might be unhappy about it. And when their young siblings see it, they might in some weird way get affected by christianity. Dear blog readers, if you can understand this blog, you have common sense then. You tell me.
Then the weirder things came up. Well I was like okay so if you insist, this shirt will not be sold to the malays then. AND NOW. She said, 1Malaysia, we must take into account of everyone's thought. So if don't sell, all don't sell. I was bombed. BOMBED. In chinese it's called ZHA DAO. It's when you have a lightning strike behind you and you're the only one who can feel it.
1Malaysia is about unity. It's about doing things that everyone does and accepting it without prejudice whatsover. It's not about restricting ourselves. Doing only things that satisfy everyone. That's not how the world works. Get over it.
I was discussing with the teacher for quite some time and she's still reluctant to change her mind. I know what she means, I understand her point. But I just feel that it is not a good-enough reason to make me change anything at all. Redesigning it, redrawing it, that's not a problem. It's just time and work. But I feel that what she said can't be considered as a reason for me to make any changes.
Is vexed. Is still flabbergasted to see how such knowledgeable people can say such words. If you are really relligious, then you will not feel anything. Being relligious doesn't mean to be protective or defensive for your relligion. It means to understand what is right and following it.
Conclusion : I don't wanna be racist. But this. will not happen in Singapore.
The end.
Monday, April 12, 2010
The Joker
The pledge.
In a deck there are 2 colours, black and red. In 24 hours there are two periods, day and night.
In a deck there are 4 suits. In a year there are 4 seasons.
In a deck there are 13 cards Ace through King. There are 13 phases of the moon.
In a deck there are 52 cards. In a year there are 52 weeks.
The turn.
Every card in the deck has a soulmate. The five of spade's soulmate would be the five of clubs. The six of hearts' souldmate would be the six of diamonds. So on so fourth. You and I both pick one card of random choice.
The prestige.
Oh the shocking faces, the smiling faces, the no-look faces. Matched finally.
Being the only joker. =(
In a deck there are 2 colours, black and red. In 24 hours there are two periods, day and night.
In a deck there are 4 suits. In a year there are 4 seasons.
In a deck there are 13 cards Ace through King. There are 13 phases of the moon.
In a deck there are 52 cards. In a year there are 52 weeks.
The turn.
Every card in the deck has a soulmate. The five of spade's soulmate would be the five of clubs. The six of hearts' souldmate would be the six of diamonds. So on so fourth. You and I both pick one card of random choice.
The prestige.
Oh the shocking faces, the smiling faces, the no-look faces. Matched finally.
Being the only joker. =(
Sunday, April 11, 2010
History in the making
This post is by request.
We've had some ideas here and there. Here's what they look like.
My first design. I still like it. Though I have to admit it is too club-shirt-ish. Fail.
The back design. Totally sucked.
This design came out of nowhere. Font designed by yonghow.
Back design. Idea by jiaen.
Revised final draft. I had a super hard time drawing this on a drawing block. This one's shrunken down to A4 size.
Revised back design. School notification.
Tada.
We've had some ideas here and there. Here's what they look like.
My first design. I still like it. Though I have to admit it is too club-shirt-ish. Fail.
The back design. Totally sucked.
This design came out of nowhere. Font designed by yonghow.
Back design. Idea by jiaen.
Revised final draft. I had a super hard time drawing this on a drawing block. This one's shrunken down to A4 size.
Revised back design. School notification.
Tada.
Friday, April 9, 2010
WAT'S UR NEXT MOVE?
Oh I'm excited. I don't care if I'm the only one who is, I'm definitely looking forward to this moment alright.
It all started about a month ago when we are set to design a new shirt for the chess club. Being the guy who is sick of the standard-looking-retro-yet-boring cub t-shirt, of course I agreed to this. I came up with the first draft, a design with simple lines and an abstract logo. I thought it was decent but my brothers doesn't seem to like it. So scratch that idea, we need a new one.
We got down and started sketching everything and anything that we could think of. There was different idea and concepts, Haukit's idea was to focus on the shirt itself, using collar neck shirt with no buttons or something like that, and a simple design to go along with it. Yonghow's thinking was to focus on the 'chess club' wording, making it simple, straightforward, yet as creative as possible. Jiaen wants to make a shirt like those you could get from Silver Planet and Crossover, big letters with fluorescent colours, and a funky design. I personally prefer just a simple round neck shirt with an awesome design.
I started drawing the animated king quite a while ago, though never thought of using it. And our pengerusi, Chengyin kept on nagging nagging... nagging us to come up with a design and submit it as soon as possible. And on that faithful day, we had to come up with something, anything. Then this idea popped up in our minds, I drew the animated king at the side while Yonghow suggested to write something, a relevant question beside it. Thinking thinking.. oo. How bout What's your next move? Yonghow corrected me, its Wat's Ur Next Move? Alright, so he designed the font and our club shirt design is now on it's way. A masterpiece of a final brainstorm.
A few days later, Jiaen proposed a design for the back of the shirt. A simple square containing the words Chess Club and SMKSP. Making it like a clothing line logo, I thought that idea was fantastic. So that was done as well. We made a few trips to the clothing shop, or whatever you call that shop, and made some changes here and there. DONE. Major YAY=)
So now it's down to selling the clothes. Promoting it. I've about 80 orders right now which is pretty decent, but I hope we can go further. This shirt shall become a fever. I hope =)
It all started about a month ago when we are set to design a new shirt for the chess club. Being the guy who is sick of the standard-looking-retro-yet-boring cub t-shirt, of course I agreed to this. I came up with the first draft, a design with simple lines and an abstract logo. I thought it was decent but my brothers doesn't seem to like it. So scratch that idea, we need a new one.
We got down and started sketching everything and anything that we could think of. There was different idea and concepts, Haukit's idea was to focus on the shirt itself, using collar neck shirt with no buttons or something like that, and a simple design to go along with it. Yonghow's thinking was to focus on the 'chess club' wording, making it simple, straightforward, yet as creative as possible. Jiaen wants to make a shirt like those you could get from Silver Planet and Crossover, big letters with fluorescent colours, and a funky design. I personally prefer just a simple round neck shirt with an awesome design.
I started drawing the animated king quite a while ago, though never thought of using it. And our pengerusi, Chengyin kept on nagging nagging... nagging us to come up with a design and submit it as soon as possible. And on that faithful day, we had to come up with something, anything. Then this idea popped up in our minds, I drew the animated king at the side while Yonghow suggested to write something, a relevant question beside it. Thinking thinking.. oo. How bout What's your next move? Yonghow corrected me, its Wat's Ur Next Move? Alright, so he designed the font and our club shirt design is now on it's way. A masterpiece of a final brainstorm.
A few days later, Jiaen proposed a design for the back of the shirt. A simple square containing the words Chess Club and SMKSP. Making it like a clothing line logo, I thought that idea was fantastic. So that was done as well. We made a few trips to the clothing shop, or whatever you call that shop, and made some changes here and there. DONE. Major YAY=)
So now it's down to selling the clothes. Promoting it. I've about 80 orders right now which is pretty decent, but I hope we can go further. This shirt shall become a fever. I hope =)
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
Kickin' it
See only the point and do only what achieves it. Time is of the essence.
Well that's suppose to be my motto of the year, since it's SPM year. I'm in dilemma. Where to after SPM? I don't even know what do I want to study. Do I want to study anyways? Hell no, but I have to. I've gotta make a choice soon, real soon.
Dad wants to me do Medic. Though I'm not interested in meddling with other people's health. I mean I could get real clumsy and gave the patient some suicidal pills (Is there such pill?). Anyways, things change. We'll see.
And my mum would like me to do A levels. To go for the ASEAN scholarships. Again. I told her she was mad, I rejected it once and now you want me to get it back (Like I can)? If I were to sit for the intake exam again, that would make me an idiot two years ago. Still, we'll see.
Diploma, an interesting choice. Singapore poly seems like a nice place. Both of my parents were sg poly graduates. From what I've heard from them, it sounds like total fun, exactly what I hope for. Still, does it offer the course I want? Oh wait, I still don't know what I want. We'll see.
We'll see we'll see. That's my problem. I've been "we'll see"ing for the past year, still I haven't got a clue what to do after SPM. Need to think, need to act.
Course-I-might-be-interested-in :
Mechanical Engineering
Electrical Engineering
Chemical Engineering
Environmental Engineering
Actuarial Science
Law
Medic?!
Advice please.
Well that's suppose to be my motto of the year, since it's SPM year. I'm in dilemma. Where to after SPM? I don't even know what do I want to study. Do I want to study anyways? Hell no, but I have to. I've gotta make a choice soon, real soon.
Dad wants to me do Medic. Though I'm not interested in meddling with other people's health. I mean I could get real clumsy and gave the patient some suicidal pills (Is there such pill?). Anyways, things change. We'll see.
And my mum would like me to do A levels. To go for the ASEAN scholarships. Again. I told her she was mad, I rejected it once and now you want me to get it back (Like I can)? If I were to sit for the intake exam again, that would make me an idiot two years ago. Still, we'll see.
Diploma, an interesting choice. Singapore poly seems like a nice place. Both of my parents were sg poly graduates. From what I've heard from them, it sounds like total fun, exactly what I hope for. Still, does it offer the course I want? Oh wait, I still don't know what I want. We'll see.
We'll see we'll see. That's my problem. I've been "we'll see"ing for the past year, still I haven't got a clue what to do after SPM. Need to think, need to act.
Course-I-might-be-interested-in :
Mechanical Engineering
Electrical Engineering
Chemical Engineering
Environmental Engineering
Actuarial Science
Law
Medic?!
Advice please.
Saturday, April 3, 2010
Deep breath. Hold it. Hold it. Faints.
For me, in life the hardest word to say is the word NO.
I always have trouble doing that. It goes NO, NO, NOT GONNA HAPPEN in my head. And when the time comes, YEA SURE WHY NOT. I don't make sense and don't plan to. People who understands me will understand this post. In other words, no one will. But of course I hope there is someone out there who does.
And saying NO does not only applies in making decisions. For me it occurs every second in my brain, literally every milli-second this question pops up and I had to struggle every sinlge time to fool my mind to forget about it and to go on with my lifeless life. Do you know how hard it is to fool yourself when you know you're doing it? It's impossible actually. However nothing is impossible so that makes that impossible.
Anyways, rejecting your own thoughts is not just a simple matter of 'oh just forget about it' or 'ah never mind I'll just sleep on it', there's like a war going on in my head. People say follow your heart. But often it is better to follow your head. You cannot follow your heart when you realise that you can depend on it. It's like luck, when one comes to a realise that he's a lucky person and starts to depend on his luck, it doesn't work anymore.
Again, I'm not sure if my head works. I rely on intuition most of the time and ended up giving it a pass everytime. Time drains it. But will it drain the real deal? I'll never know. not for sure. Consciousness is not helping. So, can I say NO again this time? Of course I can, but can I? Do I want to? I'm thinking too objectively, weighing every thought in my mind. It does not work this way.
I'll just ponder for the meantime. People see me as a happy person who's always on high spirits. And yes I am a happy person. But happy doesn't mean no worries, it does not imply that I have no problems. I will continue to be who I am, people can continue to think what they want to. Earth continues to spin.
I always have trouble doing that. It goes NO, NO, NOT GONNA HAPPEN in my head. And when the time comes, YEA SURE WHY NOT. I don't make sense and don't plan to. People who understands me will understand this post. In other words, no one will. But of course I hope there is someone out there who does.
And saying NO does not only applies in making decisions. For me it occurs every second in my brain, literally every milli-second this question pops up and I had to struggle every sinlge time to fool my mind to forget about it and to go on with my lifeless life. Do you know how hard it is to fool yourself when you know you're doing it? It's impossible actually. However nothing is impossible so that makes that impossible.
Anyways, rejecting your own thoughts is not just a simple matter of 'oh just forget about it' or 'ah never mind I'll just sleep on it', there's like a war going on in my head. People say follow your heart. But often it is better to follow your head. You cannot follow your heart when you realise that you can depend on it. It's like luck, when one comes to a realise that he's a lucky person and starts to depend on his luck, it doesn't work anymore.
Again, I'm not sure if my head works. I rely on intuition most of the time and ended up giving it a pass everytime. Time drains it. But will it drain the real deal? I'll never know. not for sure. Consciousness is not helping. So, can I say NO again this time? Of course I can, but can I? Do I want to? I'm thinking too objectively, weighing every thought in my mind. It does not work this way.
I'll just ponder for the meantime. People see me as a happy person who's always on high spirits. And yes I am a happy person. But happy doesn't mean no worries, it does not imply that I have no problems. I will continue to be who I am, people can continue to think what they want to. Earth continues to spin.
Skip this
Just wanna blog this for future references.
JB Chessmasters 2010.
7 rounds.
Draw. Win. Lost. Lost. Draw. Win. Win.
4.0.
Worst tournament result EVER.
Last win was by walkover. Is upset. Is okay now.
JB Chessmasters 2010.
7 rounds.
Draw. Win. Lost. Lost. Draw. Win. Win.
4.0.
Worst tournament result EVER.
Last win was by walkover. Is upset. Is okay now.
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