Hiastatus

Hello, it's me.


4 years since I've last laid any trace of digital ink on this desert of a blog. Surreal.

I recall the end of 2010 when I posted about secondary school ending. The emotions were overwhelming, I've always wished I could be less pessimistic and less dim and grim about life. I've always wished by growing older I'll learn to be one with all. I'll learn to think like all. But existentialism and nihilism did me no good. I did not learn. I am sad about life. I am constantly in awe by the poetry and beauty that life lays before us. The simple, elegant, inevitable destination of everyone leaving. And the further destination of everyone together, being nothing.

I am now 23.

The feelings are back. My beloved Tembusu College friends are leaving. No one knows this, but I have cried at least on 2 occasions thinking about them. I love them so much. I love them so very much.

At this point of course do not expect a well thought out piece of any form or eloquence. This is blabber. This is rant. This is a feeling I sadly understand.

I stepped into the university uncertain. Unsure of how I will fit in, or not at all. I am no typical college student. I do not find great joy in making a lot of friends, to be tagged in group photos every few days, to high five and hug humans all the time and to thank everyone when some menial achievement occured as though it depended on them or they had anything to do with it at all.

I love learning. I love friends. I love to share. I love to listen. I love being stupid. I love being smart. I love being smart enough to know I am stupid. I really hope I can find people who likes me.

I am so happy to have found the group that I am in now. You all, if you are reading this, are truly precious to me. I will give my liver for you, if you really need it.

I am not sure once again of how to approach this. I am really sad. I love you all so much and I hate for us to not be together anymore. I understand this is silly and absurd to embrace. But I really wanted to invest time and knowledge on a time machine so we can do this at least a few more times.

Life is tremendously sad and we are lucky to live the sad moments. - Louis CK

Goodbye my almost lover

I will no longer blog. Not here at least.

It's been fun. I've grown quite a lot since day 1 of this humble blog. This started out as a joke. Ended up a manuscript of precious memories for the past few years. 

I may or may not start a new one. I think I should. So long for now.

Things end.

Life of an honest liar

Lazy people like me use Sharpies

Had a great time at NP Open house 2012. I was to perform at my CCA Entertainers' Club's booth for all 3  days. Although the time and effort spent there was probably worth more than 2R points. The experience and satisfaction was beyond words can describe.

I saw quite a few ninjas throughout the event. It was nice seeing them again. Really wish we could hang out soon. Of course I performed the best that I could for them. And I think at the very least they liked it. There was also spectators from NRA, Fifi and her friends. Loved loved loved their reaction. Sometimes receiving vulgarity like 'What the ***?!' or 'How the ****ing hell?!' or just the good ole '****!' gives me the greatest sense of achievement.  It was my pleasure to share with them this beautiful art.

One particular audience that I remembered the most is a guy whose hearing was impaired. I introduced myself using my extremely limited knowledge of the sign language. (Thanks Chris Lim for teaching me!) And I told him  that he does not need to hear, all he needs is to do is see. And I showed him something visual. Sure enough. He flipped out. It really makes me happy to see that my hard work can make someone smile. Make a person's day  somewhat better. Even just for that little bit.

I also made balloons sculptors! I must say I improved throughout those three days! Now I can make decent dogs and flower bracelets. I gave one to Nas, one to Shaniz (I think), one to Mia (Ekko's friend just in case I forgotten) and a few other people. I'm glad that they did not dislike it. My fingers really got the work out they needed.

And the highlight of the event is my performance for the International Student Club. It was their new year's party and I was invited to do a 15 minutes show. I didn't had much time to plan my routine but I did my best. I opened with Helder's two glass effect, followed by Clutch, then Estimating Aces, and a final prediction effect. The crowd went crazy. Loved their enthusiasm. And I'm happy with it. Definitely my best show by far. Now I know my routine works, at least for a small crowd of 30 or so. Next thing to do. Is to improve even more. I want to be able to do a perfect pass by 2012.

So that's what happened for the past few days.

2012 was alright so far. I see hectic days ahead though. All the best to all.

*Procrastination is like the best friend you want to kill but could never bring yourself to do it.*

Finalé

It's new year's eve.

A part of me really appreciate this day. The end of 2011. The day we look upon the past 365, or rather 364 days for what we have and have not done. To remind ourselves for making it this far in life. To thank our loved ones for stick with us through fat and slim. To congratulate the earth for making yet another full orbit around the sun without exploding or anything. Like a new chapter of a novel. Which the Mayans claim to be the last. Which after much consideration I label as balderdash.

A part of me thinks the whole new year idea is nonsense. The year only ends because we set it as a 365 day cycle. To the rest of the universe it is indifferent. Tomorrow will be just another Sunday. Where the most significant change is that we will write 2012 instead of 2011 when filling in dates. A placebo to convince humanity that something is about to change. A psychological lie.

Still. As much as my brute-force-logical self demands that I study Physics now. I am staying here until I finish this post. Jumping on the band wagon. A convention I suppose. To conclude the year and propose resolutions for the upcoming one.

I do have a lot of feelings for this year.

2011 is a turning point. A maximum rate of change of life. Almost everything is different. I am away from my family. Not that distant but fair to say that I'm on my own for the most part. I am no longer with my old friends. I go to a different school now. Where. Who. How. What. Those changed. Life is not the same. And I couldn't be more glad how it turned out.

I used to be a typical student. Wake up. Go to school. Study hard. Good grades. What not. Now. Shit. I'm still a typical student. But of course the radius of my circle has widely increased. I've met a lot of amazing people this year. ES family. CCA pals. NP friends. And of course the whole of Red Camp 8. Ninjas to be accurate. I genuinely thank all of you for being a part of my life. The days and years ahead. We are to enjoy together.

To my family. Thank you for supporting me in my decisions throughout the year. Sorry for not being around more often. In a way I feel I have more control over my life. In another way I miss having my family around to talk to and be with. In 2012 I hope to spend more time with all of you. I do so love you all very much.

To my old friends. I hope 2011 has been a wonderful year for you. I miss you all too damn much. And I'm glad that we are still in touch. What we share is extremely precious and not to be forgotten. May 2012 be exponentially productive and mad-sick-awesome.

To myself. I shall make more friends. I shall be more hardworking in school. I shall be more persistent in pursuing my passion. I shall be more respectful. To people who deserves it that is. I shall show more love and care to everyone around me. I shall be more sensitive. I shall be less sarcastic. I shall be more open minded. I shall be a better person.

And here's what I expect from you, 2012.

Be a challenge and make everyone grow. Be a roller coaster and let everyone experience something unforgettable. Be a joyride and make everyone laugh. Be a dear and let everything turn out well. And lastly. Be prepared. Cause I'ma make you my bitch.

* And welcome to Physics Daily. Today's special, Standing Waves! *

The Road Not Taken

Self-explanatory

So I wanted to watch New Year's Eve today. With Wanyu and special guest, Aaron! Very nice guy. Initially he didn't planned to join us but in the end he did. Wanyu must be so happy. Unfortunately there was a bit of a hiccup and literally lack of communication. We missed the 5.30pm slot at Iluma. Bus down to Orchard. Tickets for the 6.50pm show was freaking sold out. Damn. Didn't see that coming. 

We were so frustrated. Except for Aaron. He was chilled.

After hasty consideration. We made a change of plans. We watched Sherlock Holmes instead! And I'm glad we did.

This poster kinda suck though

This is a sequel to the first film back in 2009. If not mistaken I watched it on Christmas Eve with my friends. The main cast was the same. Robert Downey Jr as Sherlock. Jude Law as Dr Watson. And the lovely Rachel McAdams as Irene.

The last film was just so-so but I must say. This time round. They did it right. 

The storyline was genius. It was a head on battle of the wits between Holmes and Moriarty. The arch nemesis of Holmes. In the novels that is. Math genius. Champion Fighter. All that. Like a evil, fat and less charming version of Sherlock. He was the one who outwit Sherlock in the last film. Apparently Moriarty wanted to start a world war or economic world war. And of course Sherlock and partner Watson were to stop him. 

Very witty. Very humorous. Very funny. Very English. And very, very smart. Nonetheless the action scenes were exciting and very much entertaining. The whole film felt like a complete puzzle. Where every scene and action were justified by the end of the movie. Incredibly fascinating. Awesome job on the writers' part. 

I liked how Sherlock can kinda analyse and see into the future. I liked how Watson is so much more badass compared to the last film. I liked how Sherlock camouflages around. Especially the last scene. Seriously that caught me off guard. The only problem I had is that Irene (Rachel)'s death was kinda lame! I mean when a girl pass out and the movie continues no one expect her to just die like that right? Well in the movie she did. The scene was too.. anyhow-ish.

Other than that. I like this movie a great deal. Really love how it makes me think and go 'Ah damn that's genius.' Intellectually sensational.

I just found out the soundtrack was written by Hans Zimmer! Needless to say I'll be seeing them in my iPod soon enough. 

8.5/10!

To Wanyu : Really the $2 was in your pocket. The one in your bag could really be the same one. I slipped the other one in Aaron's bag as well. And I do have privacy.

* Don't care. Still going to watch New Year's Eve one way or another.*

Kukup tak cukup

Came back from Kukup. There were 14 of us in total. It was mad awesome fun. The last time this many of us gathered was probably back in December '10. The KL trip. That one I could never forget for the rest of my life.

But this, was different.

Back then we were classmates. We shared the same school. The same clique. The same pressure. The same exams. And more or less, the same life.

And now. 

We're independent individuals. No longer having that much in common anymore. The only thing that still binds us together. The thing that made us fork out money and time too see each other and enjoy each other's company for just a few days. To talk crap, laugh like retards and reminisce. Is the friendship we possess. 

Cheesy. Yes. Very. But still.

I'll attempt to capture the feel of every moment with my limited vocabulary and substandard command of language. And in 10 or 20 years maybe. I'll look at this and smile for a while.

Shit. Is it me or is this getting sad. 

Seven Six a.m. waking up in the morning. Gotta get fresh. Gotta go downstairs. Gotta get my bowl plate. Gotta have cereal cheesecake...


Then we met up at Larkin Bus Interchange. Rounded up all of us and it's time to rock and roll. On the bus.

 We've got a ticket to ride.

 We've got a ticket ri-ii-ide.

 We've got a ticket to ride.

 And we don't care. 

Nah we do.

We stopped half way at Pontian to have breakfast since we were kinda of early. Thanks to my cheesecake I didn't order anything. And thanks to poor decision making I kinda regretted it afterwards. And before that for some reason I read up on the extraction of nitrogen from liquid air. Oi Yee bought her inorganic chemistry book. And I. Read.

Group photo with CJ. 

Seriously man thanks for taking the photos. 

Group photo without CJ.

Ler Ling, yea that one >>>, convinced herself that she's now a pretty girl. She's quite proud of it. I agree to a certain extend. True that I couldn't recognize her when I was her from the back at McDonald's. Thought it was Jia En's beau. Silly thought. Haha he best not see this.

We reached Kukup after around 2 hours. Hm I must say I expected more than what was presented in front of me. To hell with that. Everything is awesome when you do it with the people you love.

Houses and pathways on stilts. Yea sure okay. In the mud/paya we have mud skippers. Crabs. Bottles. Plastic bags. All that. Oh and ample flies. How could I forget that. And how I wish I could.

I like the view. The smell sucked though. It was almost like a sewer. Like if the ninja turtles came they'd feel at home.

This is our 'luxurious mansion'. Fully air conditioned. Comes with the tv. The couches. The karaoke room. And again. The bloody flies. And the only thing that's  七彩  about the house is this signboard. Still I'm quite happy with the setup. Not bad.

The curly stairs were fun. Wei Qing wouldn't go up on it. Well she did in the end as a forfeit. We ruled the first floor.

Girls. Hm.

I swear they'll be dating someday. And when this comes true. Remember to show them this post and show the others I have predicted the future.

I bet no one loves candid photos like I do. Genuine. Bona fide. Real.

After pointing towards at nothing in the sky we went to have lunch. Typical seafood lunch. Fish. Prawns. And whatnot. I remember clearly the prawns were overcooked throughout the trip. The fish though was nice. Ahh what a lovely lunch. And Siang kept on going with his spastic jokes.





Oh oh oh. Highlight of the trip I'd say? We learnt how to play mahjong. Siang was our shi fu. It wasn't as complicated as I thought it would be. I guess I just never really got to learning it. But now things have changed. We are now highly skilled. Next time we shall battle it out on the table guys.

The most touche use of LIKE A BOSS.

Like TWO bosses. 

We took a half boat half ferry to the fishing farm. That was around 5pm in the evening. Luckily no one had sea sick. Or else we might have some precious footage here. Haha.

Girls. Again.

Guess I should write more about them huh. Oi Yee's more or less the same. Wei Qing getting more mushroomish. Ler Ling has a nice dress here. Owl. And Jia Min is still ever so sweet with Hau Kit. =)

So the guy explained a bit about the belacan industry and how the fishing works. And we saw king crabs. Baby sharks. Siang bought some seafood titbits. And hahaha he lost them before he got to eat them. He lost his food. Even my baby cousin wouldn't lose his food.

Oh oh and we saw the archer fish. Dead accuracy. Shoot water up and bam! Hits the anchovy. Pretty cool. 

Group photo with random family

At night. We feast. Dinner awesome. We had a barbecue dinner. We didn't have to do the work though. We just ate. First time in my life I had a full meal eating barbecue food. It always used to be more sweating than calorie intake. The sting ray was awesome. Prawn still, overcooked.

To just gather around and have fun chatting and enjoying the good food is such a precious gift. I really really hope we can do this more often. Having more stories to share. More jokes to laugh at. And more gossips to spread.

Vanessa is so cute. Haha. She said she was like a star when she visited the Phillipines few weeks back. No one could match her fair complexion and she was mistaken as a korean star. Haha.

Group photo check point

We went back to the chalet and chilled for the rest of the night. Singing karaoke, playing cards, mahjong, chit chatting etc. Didn't plan to sleep. It's going to be full on night time madness.

See the racquet there? That's a new sport. Fly electrocution. It became a hobby. We slayed like 20 flies minimum. Haha some even got so burnt smoke rose from the wires. Smell of barbecue flies.

Had 绿豆汤 for supper and the night continued.

And did I mention I was wearing my Red Camp Ninja shirt! I packed everything in my backpack and why not bring along the ninja spirit right?

Oh okay. This I have to go into detail. We were playing the spy/thief/murderer/blinking game. These two lost. And they had to wear Ler Ling's pretty dresses. After faking reluctance for a while they did it and we snapped them some sexxay pictures. This is definitely 18sx material.












After blasting hours of karaoke some of us are holding up pretty well. Others are just brain dead.

Our no sleep plan failed badly. By 3am all of us are like zombies. We wanted sleep more than we wanted brains though. We all slammed in our beds. I slammed into the same one as CJ.

Brand new day. Last day. 

And yea Kukup looks the same. Starting to get used to the uncleanliness of the place. Though this could be the last time I'd ever be there with my dear friends.





Breakfast was a hassle when you have to eat with one hand and shoo away flies with the other. It got to a point where I think most of us don't even care if the flies had physical contact with our food. Just eat, gonna be okay. Da doo doo.

Our final lunch together at Kukup. Food was good. Atmosphere was great. Everyone had a great time. I guess we all knew it was going to end soon. Enjoy the last few moments while we can. At least that was what went through my mind.









I still remember the time when this guy wanted to sell his house. Mocca. Haha.

Packed up and left Kukup. Waited for the bus to come. Talked about the sexuality of cartoon characters. Like Blue from Blue's Clues was a female dog. No shit! And Tinky Winky seem to be a gay symbol. A purple dude with a handbag. Beats me.

We saw kids apparently doing parkour. I seriously crossed my fingers and hope they don't fall and kill themselves. The bus came. We were all beat. The following pictures was totally expected.

I had a good nap.

Love you guys so much, more than my cards

Jia En Ler Ling Oi Yee got off the bus. The rest of us decided to catch Mission Imppossible 4 : Ghost Protocol at City Square. I don't know about them. But I felt really sad to see them step off the bus. I mean no one knows the time we will see each other next time. Could be months. Touchwood. Even years. Ahh it's like the last scene in Inception when they completed the mission and went their separate ways once again. 

The movie was good. I like Simon Pegg the most. I shall not get into that now. So after the movie we took a bus home. Jake CJ Haukit Jiamin and I got off together. We walked. We said bye to each other. And that was it.

Less than 48 hours and it was over. Already I miss them. We'll be more busy in 2012. In a few more years comes university. Then comes the real world. I hope things doesn't happen to fast. So we could have time for each other in between. 

It has been a wonderful experience with you all. I could not have spent the two days any better. 

* Random realisation. I don't really use commas*

Override that virtual

This post has no purpose other than to make my last post not the latest post of my blog. It's too depressing to keep reminding myself of it.

 

So um I was part of EHC (Engineering Headstart Camp). Some a fortnight ago. The whole of ES was taking part in it so it's a mass ponteng. It's a revision week but still technically it's still class. So.

 

It's quite interesting. Turned out to be much more fun than I thought. I was one of the student leaders for THE GREEN LANTERNS. You know. Just the best team. Won the amazing race. Won the best cheer. Won the most happening team. And stuff like that. I'm so proud of you all.

 

Visited Ciba Vision to see how contact lenses are manufactured. Marina Barrage, for the second time, the exact same thing all over again. Campus tour. Learnt about all engineering courses. Oh that's a ninja camper and an ex-nra classmate. Thought they kinda look alike.

Yea. Good games. Good food. And staying at the loft is super fun. It's funny how we shared secrets on the second night. Like an episode of The View. Or Oprah. 

 

 Not the smartest move when the following week is the common test week. But I had fun. Time well spent.

*We shall not end*